Uggg...

Sometimes I wonder if I expect or want too much. My problem is that I spend so much time thinking and talking about what I want and don't actually get off of my ass and put my thoughts and wants into motion. Well... it's that and other things that just wont happen because it's just not in the cards for me. It's something that I have come to realize recently, that there are some things that I will just have to get over and realize that I need to let go and let it be. I'm inpatient and I know it! My boyfriend calls me the eternal procrastinator... which isn't completely true. I DO procrastinate, but I eventually get around to doing whatever it is that needs to get done. And once I start, I keep at it until it's finished.

I've had one of those days today where everything just seems to get under my skin and nothing seems to go right. Even the things that I can always rely on to make me happy, aren't today. Heck... even sex, which is something that I love and can't seem to get enough of, seems like it may be a let down tonight. Nothing to do with my guy, he's wonderful, it's all me tonight. I just am in one of those moods where I want something, don't know what it is, or perhaps wanting something specific and I know I can't have it. Which isn't a bad thing, I can be patient in waiting for somethings. It's just that when I have a craving for something in the bedroom, all other things no matter how good, just don't' seem to get the job done. So, to come off of my tangent... hehehe... cute pun! (not intentional)

I'm in that bad of a mood that even sex isn't on the top of my list tonight.

To be honest, I don't even wanna go home to sleep (which I desperately need to catch up on) I wanna go to a bar and sit and drink beer after beer until I need help stumbling!

The Naked Fireman Calendar 2009

The Naked Fireman Calendar 2009!

This picture made me chuckle!!! How cute!!!

Couldn't sleep last night! Pour quoi?

Yeah, I’m getting personal. If sex and masturbation masks you uncomfortable don’t read, but really, even if it does it’s like a train wreck! You can’t help but look!

So, I had one of those nights that I couldn't sleep no matter what I did last night! I was soooo exhausted yet I couldn't fall asleep.

Pour quoi?

Because I was horny beyond belief!!! Arrrggg.... Thank goodness I had bought new batteries the last time I went to the store because after last night, the new set I just put into my I-vibe is already dieing! I wore them out, and my fingers are a bit numb from holding it in place. Yeah, I'm pathetic. It was that bad!

I “played” and finished quickly right before I went to sleep the first time... Yeah, I just said the first time. I was relieved enough that I was able to fall asleep. Remind me in the future that "just enough" doesn't get the job done! I went to sleep and exactly two hours later I wake up with a thin layer of sweat on my skin due to a dream that I was having. Oh goodness I really wish I could remember it because I would be sharing it with everyone! Seriously, I would be telling the teller at the bank about this fabulous dream I had the other night that left me breathless. I remember bits and pieces, but not enough to really make any sense.

I tried my darnedest to go back to sleep, flipped over several times tired every position I could think of to take the pressure off of my “area” but there was no relief in site! I even ventured over to the other side of the bed (I haven’t slept on that side of the bed since my husband moved out in July 07’) in hopes that a change in scenery would help, NO NO NO! Nothing helped!

So, I finally gave up and decided to "play" again. Got up grabbed a towel, because I had a feeling I was going to make a mess. Grabbed my I-vibe and quickly went to work. And oh yeah, apparently I needed the release because not even one minute went by before I was Cumming. But no! That didn't help, I needed more. So, I got up and grabbed my dildo and started playing again. YEP! That's what I needed!!! I was using both at the same time and the release ended up being so intense and sure enough I made a mess everywhere. I soaked through the towel and now there is the infamous wet spot in the bed right where I sleep. I was so satisfied that I didn't' even feel like getting up to put away my toy's appropriately. I just grabbed them and tossed them on the nightstand and threw the towel on the floor.

I quickly feel asleep and enjoyed a most peaceful slumber!

Irritation...

Errrr... I've met my quota for freakouts on my person and I'm pissy. So, I will take it out here! Fuck! I hate this shit!

Oh well, I will just suck it up and move on.